03-04-07

Trouble a brewing

He looks at me “we’re moving up north, i need away from them.” Thinking about the life I had, and how to blend two babies and a boy into the mix does not look promising. We’re heading up in May for K and S’s wedding, so we’ll see how the baby lugging, Starbucks with boy singular, T riding with the family goes. Will I be able to fit back into the rythym of things? The idea of intellectual conversation not rotating around the self sounds promising, of going out to dinner with friends, galleries and shows and art, oh my. But will there be a problem between guy friends and boy singular? Will it cause tension? What jobs? What houses? Boy singular won’t survive there, I know this. We won’t be heading back to Pittsburgh, but maybe I can find the things I love of the old city and mix it with the things he loves from here.