05-24-04

Proverbs

I was once told “You have to have courage to live the way you want.” I believe this with all of my heart. Whereas I have always been couragous, I have never strived for the life I wanted and always for the life I felt others wanted for me.

I peer out the window, watching the birds fly by the school across the street and sum up my life. I’ve found my job, MY job, no one elses, Design Coordinator for a local book publishing company downtown. The job I have always wanted, everytime I picked up a book, everytime I went shopping through Barnes and Nobles, shopping for ideas through the stacks and stacks of amazingly designed book jackets. I’ve always wanted this job and now that there is an opening I am going today to get it.

I have a studio apartment in a gorgeous part of town, where the houses are huge and expensive and the main street is a yuppie paradise with over priced gift stores, hip styling salons and more than one bridal shop with outstanding masterpieces of silk and lace sparkling in the storefront windows.

I have a boyfriend, mature, successful but most importantly who adores me and treats me the way I need to be treated. He is gorgeous, green eyes, tan but not too dark skin, with an accent. He is to teach me arabic and hebrew, he likes to travel and be adventurous. He lives in LA. He brought me flowers to work and wants to travel from Washington DC to see me for dinner. He is 31, married once before to a women who valued something mundane over him, someone who would rather be high than be with him. He is from Jordan. He tells me about cities made of stone and sky diving. I tell him about walking on the grass barefoot. He invites me to LA so I can go barefoot on the beach someday. He was shaking the day I gave him my phone number. His birthday is on Thursday, I’m going to draw him the starbucks where we met.

And my life, after all these years, is finally as it should be. It will change, I will change, but I am more content than I have ever been before and for the moment it is wonderful.