04-28-04

Mixed thoughts

I am getting mixed reactions from those i have told about the job. Some think it is wonderful, others are frightened due to the increasing turmoil in that region. Samira was excited, and i think above all if she was sceptical then perhaps i would rethink it. Qatar is a penninsula right off of saudi. The only thing is, her parents are trying to come to the US to escape the violence there…or so the reasoning goes from others. Qatar doesn’t really have involvement in the current situation, besides minor tifts with the US for covering what they are doing in Iraq… in a very untypical US fashion, instead of us “liberating” and “playing with poofay bunnies” we are pounding and besieging and killing…soundbites not typically used by our own media.

So here my stomach turns, i would love the experience and i know if it is offered to me i would go, but part of me is hesitant, no matter what my political views are, no matter how much i agree or disagree with our governments choices, no matter how open-minded i am I will still be viewed as an American, in all its stereotyped glory. Its not necessarily a bad thing, emotionally draining after a time, until it puts my life at risk…will that happen in qatar who knows? Who knows a year from now where the world will be…Maybe just being an American in Pittsburgh, Houston, Boston, New Brighton, in America in general will be dangerous to our lives. Maybe it already is and we are just to naive or busy to notice.