05-21-04

a month and change

So he has been Drunken Mgr, Mr. A, his real name and finally back to drunken mgr, where we find the situation right now. Its been a month and optimistically I have learned more about alcohol in the past month than i have in 20 some years. But seriously…i need to talk to him, I can’t do this. I dont understand.

Natalia says find someone older…thank you ms. obvious. mom says walk away. Aaron says i wont listen to him but to do the same.

I just want a friggin job to come through and Muhanna to call. i am tired of this crap. I want a non-spiked boyfriend! I want to be able to afford great furniture for my apt. Hell, I want to be able to afford my apt. I want to pay off my debts, eat where and when i want to and buy martini’s and shoes when i need to, like now. And the funny thing is, I am still living fabulously :). I like the challenge. Dear god, see…you’re still there to me so ha! i don’t care how many more resumes i have to send out, i know it is your will and nothing more. Your will and nothing less. Your will and nothing else. Just will a few more dollars in this general direction please!

Amen and a bottle of wine.