We're All Mad Here

09-07-06

We’re crawling..

…and gibberishing
…and pulling ourselves up
…on our crib
…and of course rolling over
…and sitting up
…and eating solids
…and mommy’s food

…and going to college

07-30-06

I guess I really didn’t know what to expect. Maybe I did, maybe i was neive and stupid enough to let my guard down. I should have known better. He went way for a week down in miami and rarely called. I knew why, i just didn’t want to believe it. He comes back and tells me “I’m going to join the coast guard.” Ok. I don’t question, just nod. Later he tells me of all his stories from the past week. All of them “Meghan and I….”, “We….”, “Everywhere she was I was there.” Finally hits me with a “She’s in the Coast Guard, you know.”

Bring me more wine. I need to drink myself under tonight.

03-22-06

Solaris is Here!

February 17, 2006
7 lbs. 9 oz.
20.5 inches
:)

02-10-06

Going Insane

38 weeks…1 day. I’ve been having icky contractions for about a week or two, the kind where you feel like everthing is crampy and falling out and your stomach is hard and you can’t breathe and SEE! This is what i get for allowing them to stop it at 34 weeks (Oh yeah… nice trip to the hospital @ 34 weeks with contractions between 3 to 4 minutes apart. The nurse said we were doing better than the lady down the hall, but they had to stop them since we were in preterm still). Now I am never going to have her. She’s like me, all bull headed and such. If this stuff doesn’t do something soon I will cry. And if someone tells me I am carrying high again I will cry. And if my back doesn’t either quit hurting our help me drop this kid in the next few days I will cry.

On a lighter note, the baby’s head is “right there” and the other doctor scheduled another appointment for next week but she “doubts she will see me then.” I am hanging on to these two things in hope.

01-02-06

fear.

david knows a lot of really young people, who he has met through relatively younger people. Where as it might be ok for the relatively younger people to know the really younger people, and for david aged people to know the relatively younger people, it might not be so good for a david aged person to be friends with the really younger people. For instance, last night we had the privileged of a not so legal girl as our guest.

She was sitting on our sofa talking about her week. After she ran through almost every illegal drug and the event surrounding it, the talk turns to Solaris. “I can’t wait for you to have her so I can come babysit.” Umm…what? Smile and nod, smile and nod. Only if you promise to be rolling dear…

Paulina comes to visit in 4 days. I am designed out, having been designing for the last two weeks straight. My mind is fried, it needs a break, too bad these proofs are due in 48 hours. C’est la vive.