08-28-03

I wish i were chained in a cave

Uh huh, did i say i liked Modern, Knowledge and Self? I lied. Very boring, lets see how many times i can say the same thing over and over again w/o anyone catching on. The blonde in the corner blinks twice and twirls her hair. Let me just set the stage for you… outside, sun is shining, starbucks frozen thing in my hand, ladybug crawling all over me, looking at the teacher like he is the second most stupid person on earth (no one beats the Bushman) as he goes over the fact that we need to liberate ourselves from the cave for the eigth time in an hour. Boy in the corner asks a question, teach stumbles…ah..ah…and…he DISREGAURDS the question. Now i understand that Plato’s world view was steeped in idealism, but telling me that i am questioning the validitiy of his argument b/c i am raised in the era of postmodern is bullshit. its like saying…”don’t question the idiot, his view point is from the era of dumbass and therefore valid in his time, but you are questioning it simply because you were raised on sesame street.” NO. Plato believed in absolute truth, somewhere out there you will find absolute truth (if you smoke enough of the cheeba), but it is out there. So how can something be truth if it is proven invalid…even years later. But it was truth then…fuck dat shit! Maybe we are confused with the word “truth,” i know its alittle ambiguious, but i think thats just because you come from the post modern era…fucks.

And then theres the fact that the entire piece “the Cave” is hypocritical. I refuse to sit there and take any analyzation of the contextual matter of the piece seriously. Of course we are in caves…of course in order to liberate ourselves we must no longer look at the shadows on the wall but find abstract reasoning….but i find the snow on t.v. caused by bad reception works just as well. But what if when we get to the dialectical thought it turns out to be just another shadow on another wall. Ok, i will admit that that is a very postmodern viewpoint, yes, but seriously, how pompous is Plato to think that that is it, abstract reasoning, that that is IT. $IT=’The liberating piece to set us aside from everyone else.’ Um, no. That my dear is just another shadow you are reading. A little ditty put together to trick you into your positions in life. You were meant to be liberally educated, here is where we insert the ego boast, feed the “eternal desire to be better than thou” and “poof!” entertain you sad fools chained in the cave with an allegory about the exact fucking cave you are sitting in. No thank you sir. We will never truly understand what it is we are in search of for we will always be distracted and chained to walls. Not that i a.) am complaining or b.) would mind it terribly because chains are fun, and walls, bedposts, trees, i dont care.

That was my spiel thank you for listening, since no one else will.

~shell

08-28-03

back at J.C

So school has started again. It is currently thursday and my apt is still not unpacked. damn. I have no time. I have some free time today between my 1 and my 4 oclock class, so i finally get to update the blog. New job, consists of me making spam (but apparently doing a damn good job at it. i have decided to post all the nice things ppl say so i can come back and gloat five years form now…

I just saw the design you did for the prospective student emails… NICE! ~joel

i rock. ) Humphrey is funny, but why the hall can i never escape the friggin OfficeSpace jokes ANYWHERE! Speaking of jokes, i still need to finish watching SuperTroopers mainly so i can relate to what the hell Aaron is talking about b/c yes…he still is quoting it. So apparently my role is to make traditional media turn all multimedia-ish and I KNOW i didn’t pursue journalism for a reason, why the hell did it catch up to me again?

classes are great, i think though i am alittle off being the only person on campus who actually likes Modern, knowledge and the self. I could do with out the Matrix analyziation and having to see Run Lola Run for the hunderth time, but we get to play with Plato’s The Cave AND the Symposium (plus got to listen to Ani DiFranco).

Ideas of Beauty in Ancient Greece started with rereading the Illiad, which of course i read just long enough ago to forget. But i am thinking i know what was considered beauty in Greece and it has something to do with the Symposium and alittle to do with the Theory of Projection with a smidge of…got distracted, pulled paper out of the cyber cafe printer…ahhh memories of last year. sigh. This is why I quit TLT, why am i still doing it? anyway forgot what i was saying but…Oh, i wish classes were more indepth, getting tired of having dumbed up conversations.

Donna had emergency surgey this summer so she is out till mid september. I heard she is doing fine so i am not too worried, she is a fighter. I hope she feels better soon and glad to hear she is doing well. I feel bad she had to get sick. those classes are cancelled till the ninth.

Lilith works, but only sometimes, but thats ok. I need to get started on my research for the backend AI thing. I have been learning PERL and have to schedule in time on the weekends to pursue it farther, no time during the week. Still really excited about it. Many ideas. Forming a stronger idea of how it will exactly work, now i have to get it on paper b4 it leaves.

Met a guy named Jesse when i was in pittsburgh. apparently we had dated b4 but neither of us remebered. (you know you have a problem when…? j/k) But he was nice and we are defiently talking now. But he is of course terribly Beaver County-ish and not very exciting to talk to. Not one of those ppl who will talk philosophy with you while rubbing your back, if you know what i mean. But he is a nice person and i always like making new friends. Beth goes home Sunday. Macromedia MX 2004 is coming out (ROCK) and I am FINALLY reading snowcrash. ..and something called Whitenoise, by Don Delillo. Keep ya informed.

I heart Time management and Outlook (yeh, i did just say that didn’t i? ewww)
~shell